Unfortunately, I question and examine my thoughts more often than I get to document it. Apologies for the long periods of time in between posts.

The subject of my last post has been weighing heavily on my mind for the last few days. As adamant as I was about decisions being made purely with logic rather than emotions, I found myself struggling with a decision in which I let the latter prevail. My relationship with my boyfriend is not easy. Loving each other relentlessly isn't the issue, but rather loving each other too much for our own good may be our demise. In summary, upon the overflow of entirely too many emotions (too many for a logical human being to posses in my opinion) my boyfriend and I were faced with a decision to relieve our stress without each other, or please our hearts with each other. I knew what the "right" decision was. I think with my use of quotes you can figure which of the two I'm talking about. I must have gone back and forth hundreds of times in the time we spent just talking. At one point I was settled on making the logical decision. In fact, I tried to, but somehow here I am. I let my heart win and I don't know if I regret it. I'm happy, I mean, this is where I want to be. This is where my heart wants me to be. By no means will I deny the fact that I am a hypocrite, but I just felt like this is what I should do, this is where I should be.

Those are clearly words from my heart and not my head. I suppose it's a continual learning process -arguments, decisions, opinions, life. I'm happy with my life right now, the decisions I've made, and haven't made. And I'm too damn stubborn to leave one of the few things that make me happy. I suppose this is the exception I make in my rule of logical decision making.